Sunday, December 14, 2008

Fear Not

As I prepare for Christmas and my "big" trip to SD I find myself subconsciously worrying about everything. I am afraid that while I am gone things will not work out at home like I would like them too, I am fearful of my mounting bills and how to put off the creditors for just a few weeks longer. All this worry and fear is getting in the way of my beauty rest! My brain spins while I try to sleep, kinda like the hamster in the wheel, faster and faster it goes, until I just give up, turn the TV on to try to get my mind off of all this FEAR. My friend just told me today that my young Son, Alex who is 16, told her that he did not want his Mom to worry while away, ahh isn't that sweet. That actually brought tears to my eyes, that I have obviously done something right in the raising of kids dept. He can read me and I didn't even realize that. How wonderful is that! So I do feel much better and while I was on my treadmill I told myself that everything will work out just fine, just the way it is supposed to. My fear was actually because of my great opportunity, which I am so grateful to have. We all tend to be fearful of rising to the top or taking on new responsibility or great opportunity. So we all need to just try to relax, that is hard for me sometimes, and just go with the moment, enjoy and breath....... No more fear here.

Remember: Don't be afraid of the fearful side of life.

4 comments:

Kathy Brakhage said...

A little fear is good. It keeps you aware of what you need to do. Too much can cripple you, I agree. I'm so proud of your exciting new adventure and I know deep down under your fear you are too! Your kids and your house will be fine sweetie. You've done all the groundwork now all you have to do is have faith and GO FOR IT!! Best wishes for your success! I know you can do it! Love, Kathy

MilesPerHour said...

It's a challenge for me as well tying to stay in the moment. And have faith. And have serenity. I can keep moving or we can stay stuck. Those are the choices as I see it. You're not alone.

Anne said...

It's all normal feelings for what your going through. I think you mentioned that you were a single Mom, raising two sons. You have the stress of raising them, Christmas, new job, etc. With your story here, you inspire me, as I'm sure others, to try not to feel alone and put it into God's hands, where you can always find peace of mind and heart. Take care my new bloggy friend. :-)

Sabrae said...

Don't worry about it! You will do fine!