Sunday, June 20, 2010

Who's your rock???

Today is Father's Day. I hope all the Dad's out there had a very unique day and that everyone out there was able to reminisce, visit or talk to their Dad's. I am thankful that I still have my Dad here. I talked to him this morning and he is so excited that the boys and I will be there in 2 weeks. It will not be our usual 4th of July spectacular, but all great things fizzle out sooner or later. He said he can't wait till I get there so I can make him some of my world famous macaroni salad with black olives and chunks of sharp cheese, it brought tears to my eyes. We will at least be able to go out on the boat and see other lake spectacular fireworks and enjoy them. I am back to work again, YEAH, I hope for awhile, but for now it is a steady, regular paycheck. Now I am working towards making things in my life more regular. I have struggled for so long, I feel as if I have become immune to the feeling. I am very grateful for managing to save my home from foreclosure. I feel as if I have climbed Mt Everest! Oh what a feeling! I have only had myself to be my own "rock" and that is tough most times. I would love nothing more than to have someone in my life to share life with again. It's nice sometimes to be able to talk about life stresses and ups and downs with someone else. As I have said previously, I am a very strong person and sometimes I get tired of being strong. I need to find a "rock" for me. As I learn to relax more and do some things for me, taking one day at a time, I know I will find everything and more that I am looking for and need. I do have such a sense of freedom now and pray it will continue. Still working on getting myself out there more is also a chore. I miss the days in my past when I had friends and neighbors come over and we'd cook out, kids would play together, we'd have cocktails, good food and great company. These days that seems harder to find, well in my neighborhood. So I am on a mission to finds some new friends to do just that. Until next time......all have a great week!

Remember: Our inner strength is more than one can imagine, use it.