Who's your rock???

Today is Father's Day. I hope all the Dad's out there had a very unique day and that everyone out there was able to reminisce, visit or talk to their Dad's. I am thankful that I still have my Dad here. I talked to him this morning and he is so excited that the boys and I will be there in 2 weeks. It will not be our usual 4th of July spectacular, but all great things fizzle out sooner or later. He said he can't wait till I get there so I can make him some of my world famous macaroni salad with black olives and chunks of sharp cheese, it brought tears to my eyes. We will at least be able to go out on the boat and see other lake spectacular fireworks and enjoy them. I am back to work again, YEAH, I hope for awhile, but for now it is a steady, regular paycheck. Now I am working towards making things in my life more regular. I have struggled for so long, I feel as if I have become immune to the feeling. I am very grateful for managing to save my home from foreclosure. I feel as if I have climbed Mt Everest! Oh what a feeling! I have only had myself to be my own "rock" and that is tough most times. I would love nothing more than to have someone in my life to share life with again. It's nice sometimes to be able to talk about life stresses and ups and downs with someone else. As I have said previously, I am a very strong person and sometimes I get tired of being strong. I need to find a "rock" for me. As I learn to relax more and do some things for me, taking one day at a time, I know I will find everything and more that I am looking for and need. I do have such a sense of freedom now and pray it will continue. Still working on getting myself out there more is also a chore. I miss the days in my past when I had friends and neighbors come over and we'd cook out, kids would play together, we'd have cocktails, good food and great company. These days that seems harder to find, well in my neighborhood. So I am on a mission to finds some new friends to do just that. Until next time......all have a great week!

Remember: Our inner strength is more than one can imagine, use it.

Escaping Anxiety

WOW if life isn't tough enough on it's own, the huge oil catastrophe, the NY car bomber and so on and we thought that being unemployed, having no money, health issues, were about as bad as we can get. Not sure why these terrible people continue to want to hurt Americans, the terrorism thing has always been a huge stress event in my household because it is such a scary thing to deal with. It's hard to explain to your kids the same thing and also reassure them that all will be ok. My family not only is dealing with all the world issues as well as me being unemployed again and now, my Dad having a brain tumor, which really hits way too close to home. I have been very fortunate to have not experienced these types of family situations until now. Of course my Parents are in their 70's and I guess this is to be expected. I have many friends whose Parents did not make it this long, so I feel quite blessed. My Brother is handling the brunt of the care with them as my Mom is not that well either, early stages of emphysema and I do not live close to them, I am about 800 miles from them and now having no job makes me feel quite inadequate, like I am not really able to help out. I keep my chin up and try to forge on and pray that I will get a job so that I can get to see my family again during this terribly painful event that has been thrown upon us. Trying to remain stress free and upbeat is difficult. Anxiety runs through my veins and does not allow me adequate rest, while looking for work and going to interviews, it is amazing how I force myself to get up each day to face the same set of circumstances and praying for positive results all the way around.

Remember:  Anxious times make for long days

Reaching out for HELP !!!!

Hello Everyone - It has been a rough past 30 days since I wrote my last post and I am still without work! My previous employer is fighting me on paying unemployment so we are really "drowning" here and I feel so much anxiety that I don't sleep at night. I have even reached out to my Church and have not been successful in getting any response from them, hmmm...I might need to find a better Church family, I thought that is really who you could count on, apparently not. I also ran across some "celeb" news, that Stephen Baldwin, actor and "born again christian", who is in such bad financial crisis has a website, setup by his Church followers to help raise money to "save" him, WHAT.....??? Give me a break !!!! He has so many more resources than any of us regular, hardworking, people do and they expect "us" to give money to his cause when we don't even have enough for ourselves!!!
So with that said I would like to see if there are any of you out there that plan to give money to Stephen Baldwin's cause, if you would give those few dollars to me and my family instead. I have always known that "we" are a giving species and I have given and given for many, many years, and will continue to, to people in need just like I am now and I would like to think that there are people like me that would help me out in my crisis. If you feel generous enough to send me money to help me try to keep my house, my utilities on and gas in my car, I would be forever grateful. I have gotten as much money from my Parents as possible as my Dad has just undergone brain surgery 2 weeks ago today, to remove part of a tumor, called Glioma, and there is still another smaller part to this that he has to find out what the next course of action is going to be next week, so between their help and his massive medical bills now, I cannot expect them to be able to help me anymore and I know my Dad is very worried, which is not good for his brain and I feel bad that I cannot be there to help, anyway, my point is that I am doing everything I can, I have even applied for food stamps, hey, I am not too proud to admit when I am down and need some help. I have always been the "strong" one and I guess now it is my turn to learn to lean on others.
IF you can and would like to help me and my family, please email me for information on how to do that, ANY amount will help and I want to Thank You all now. You will not be forgotten! Email to: rquartz28@netscape.net

Remember: It is better to GIVE than RECEIVE, when you give you will receive *** just don't GIVE to the "famous actor" who lives better than all of us :)

Time for a change

Hello everyone ! Once again I am without a job, oh my. So I have been taking this time to rediscover myself and really try to make any one of my entrepreneurial adventures work. I've also discovered that people today are more into hurting you than helping you and it should not be like this. If anything we should be more of a "helping" people because I am sure that we all need some kind of help in one way or another. I am actually very glad not to be working in an office, corporate setting anymore, my stress level is way down and the freedom to roam at anytime of the day or night is the best feeling. I just gotta find a way to earn enough money to live on. Times are still tough and going to continue for awhile, so I must persevere and continue to look for the "open" doors that are out there for me, maybe I need some "special" glasses to see them LOL. Ok this is short and sweet and I am gonna try to come back here more often like the "good ole" days !


Remember: The time to change is now, just like the seasons

Youthful Times

I think we as a "people" have forced ourselves to forget how wonderful times were when we were younger. If we would incorporate things we did in our younger days we would all be much happier. I was thinking hard about this when I heard someone say "I'm too old to do that". Now I have always believed that "You are as young as you feel" quote is so true. Your birthday year is only a number on your birth certificate. Just because you are 30,40,50 or 60,etc; does not mean you have to "act" like what the number perceives you should be. I know I look youthful, not my true age, and act youthful because I still enjoy those simple childhood pleasures. I also believe that you are never too old to finish something you started, regardless of what your friends or family might say, I say "GO FOR IT" Chasing our dreams and endeavors is what keeps us young and our minds alive. That is what LIFE is all about. I sure don't want to look forward to a life of sitting around doing nothing, I want to fly by the seat of my pants just as I have and live on the edge, push the envelope and go for the gusto. So make a goal to do something you used to enjoy when you were a kid, you just may surprise yourself!


Remember: Live Life YOUTHFUL